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[Nov. 18th, 2009|12:57 pm] |
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"love is watching someone die" |
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[Aug. 28th, 2009|05:12 pm] |
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wow it took until my fourth year of college to be offered LSD.....I still said no lol |
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[Jun. 16th, 2009|07:28 pm] |
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people fucking sicken me. |
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[May. 14th, 2009|05:01 pm] |
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So my room which we all decided rooms fairly out of a hat is like a closet. Which blows. It's in the front of the house, which blows. It is also right next to the wooden stairs in which i can hear people coming up and down all night. I love the rest of the house but I'm seriously so stressed and crazy right now that I'm super dissapointed that the two people who don't deserve the biggest rooms got them. BAH! I'm donezo with dealing with school stress. I wanna go home now and I have the hardest make or break final tomorrow. UGH UGH UGH. INSANITY! |
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[Apr. 14th, 2009|08:42 am] |
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The more I feel the burn and pressure of the school year coming to an end, the less I want to do about it. I don't know where my motivation got up and ran off to. I'd like it back. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2009|05:46 pm] |
Seeing as I've only limited LJ to bitchy whiny posts about what in my life is going wrong I figured I'd try to stray from that..sorta
Did anyone else ever feel like they were born in the wrong decade? Like, I could totally do without being this age currently. I'd like for me to be this age mid 90s. I feel as though I would totally fit better there. Anyone else feel that way?
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[Mar. 31st, 2009|12:49 pm] |
Being an adult is not about getting a job, a house, a husband, and a dog.
...It's how you react to a situation you're put in.
...I'm growing up. |
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[Mar. 8th, 2009|04:22 pm] |
Is it bad that the grass is always always always the greenest on the other side?
I was doing REALLY well and I don't know what the trigger was but now I just want to live inside forever and suddenly every single single thing about me from my body to my nails to my eyes bothers me.
I just want money and to not be in the negatives. i don't know what thats going to do for my sel esteem but one step at a time I guess. |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2009|11:59 pm] |
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I'm sure other people may feel this way..But I feel like I can judge the personality of someone by the way they hold their toothpaste. Like if they squeeze it from the middle or they roll the end down to force it to the front. I don't know. Just an observation. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2009|03:02 pm] |
I just might have destroyed the only thing in my life I care about. How the fuck can he ever forgive me?
He doesn't know how much he means to me and with the stupid shit I pull I can't imagine him understanding how much I love him.
WHY DO I DO THIS? I just want to throw up and I don't want to be the reason why anything ever changes.
He's my life. |
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[Jan. 29th, 2009|05:36 pm] |
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reel big fish is coming to new paltz in april...so stoked! |
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[Jan. 5th, 2009|10:34 pm] |
The other night I had a dream we broke up. I woke up crying. It made me realize how amazing it feels to be in love and always knowing that he's thinking about me as much as I am about him.
however, the one thing i would like to change is working. i'm up so early and work all day and have no energy to hang out with people when i get home and i can't go to work super tired cause i have to learn something new everyday. On the upside, i did get to work in exports today and the woman put me in charge of finding representatives for Pawling Corp. in Slovakia and the Czech Republic. Win!. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2008|05:47 pm] |
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I'm angry for no reason. I get worked up and I don't even have a legitimate reason. God I can't wait for a sense of normalcy! |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2008|02:36 pm] |
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lame, I know.... but I've really been in the mood to watch As Told By Ginger and i can't find it online. it was such a cute show. anyone feel me on this one? haha |
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[Oct. 29th, 2008|03:48 pm] |
This is gay but i was just spacing out the other night and just thinking about how much everyone i associate/d with has changed. Some for better, some for worse, some go through chalenges I would never want to experince, and others I envy for how far they've come.
We were learning about Taoism in religion class. In one form of Taoism, in order to obtain your Ch'i, its a progressive method and instead of losing Ch'i or Managing your Ch'i, you're empty and you progressively become more filled with Ch'i throughout your life with the more good you do.
So, I was thinking. Is it possible we were born empty and every emotion we experience just fills us up little by little and makes it possible to experience these feeling more or less as we grow older.
Like love for example, I had no idea what it was. But as I got older I realized it is possible to care for people besides my immediate family. Like friends, I never knew what it was like to have an actual good friend until I got into Highschool. Everyone i associated with was just for the wrong reasons and when i finally said fuck it all and realized who i was I found the best friends i could ever ask for.
And of course Brian. i'm so thankful for Brian. he's the first guy I've ever been in love with, so needless to say I get crazy psycho hose beast cause it's a whole brand new thing i'm feeling.
If someone was born and stuck in an empty room their whole life. What would they feel? would they? |
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[Oct. 15th, 2008|12:11 am] |
I never thought I would EVER been in a serious relationship. I always thought there would never be someone out there that could stand me for such a long time or how it could be such a long time with the same person without getting boring. As cliche as it sounds, once I found the right person, all those worries went out the window. Staying with him this long really made me realize it is possible to fall more in love with someone everyday and how HAPPY I am to have him!
okay, i'm done with the sappiness haha. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2008|02:31 pm] |
I want a tattoo. I want it on the right side of my lower back. I know what I want and I know its something that no one else has which is what i like about it too.
now...to not get excommunicated from my family lol..... |
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[Sep. 5th, 2008|09:57 am] |
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I feel like I'm getting ready to depressed. Its like the PMS of a slump I know I'm about to fall into. I want to leave already |
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